October 21

I was born 40 years ago today.

I didn’t breathe for 11 minutes when I was born.

My mom thought I was dead and was later told I had brain damage.

I think God knew I would need more than a “normal” birth.

He knew I would need to KNOW He meant for me to be.

Be what?

40 Years now and what have I been?

Blessed.

I have been blessed beyond what I could ever think or imagine.

Blessed with God’s protection, promises, love, and with precious people in my life.

What do you want of me Lord?  Where do I go from here?

Lead me, mold me, use me.

A butterfly was mushed in the door of my car yesterday.

We never know when the day will bring mushing for us.

The guy who did my nails today said his 96 year old grandmother died last week from falling down the stairs.  My Sweet Granny is 96 and fell down the stairs and lived.  If Sweet Granny had died she would have gone to heaven.  His grandma was a Buddhist.  I am saddened.  I was ashamed and thankful for my blessing and his loss.  Even more thankful for the blessing of being born 40 years ago into a family who taught me to believe.  I never had to begin believing.  Christ was in my beginning.

Christ is in my now.  Christ is my future.

You have made me strong enough.  I breathed after those 11 minutes and after those 40 years.

Bring on the next 40.

Ready or not they say…I’m ready…because of you Lord.

Ready or not…ready

kim denise crawford