David’s treatment, surgery, & recovery with an acoustic neuroma brain tumor.
Buzzing and Nuzzling
The young chestnut-bronze deer nuzzled against his snow-white woolly friend in the meadow.
Hundreds of yellow buttercups shielded them from the outsiders.
Sunbeams reached from the blue sky to warm the sleepy couple.
Lily Lamb lay her fluffy head on the fuzzy bronze neck of her friend Davy Deer.
Lily grinned as she thought about Davy’s white tuft of a tail sticking up as he protected her from Old Grey Bully Goat.
No one saw this but her.
Davy’s long legs running through the meadow, jumping over chilly streams and leaping through green thickets, were like fingers strumming a guitar.
His sweet and sad melody rang in Lily’s heart as a symphony of songs.
Davy’s sounds buzzed in her ear like the bees when they make golden honey and hummed like the sparrows when they welcome the orange sun over the crest.
Davy’s big brown loving, longing, eyes pierced through Lily’s sentimental soul.
Lily kissed each of Davy’s creamy eyelids, which told him I love you too.
Davy flicked a red and black ladybug off the soft pink inside of Lily’s ear.
She woke and realized she was dreaming of Davy.
Lily remembered that Davy was not nuzzled beside her in the green field any longer, but rather on a journey in a faraway land.
A tear squeezed from Lily’s jade green eye.
She felt a slight breeze and a chestnut-bronze colored butterfly dried her tear.
As he flew away, Lily noticed the tiniest tuft of white on the tip of the butterfly’s silky wing.
Kim Crawford-Meeks revised 10.22.2018; 07.02.2019; 03.07.2020
Thorns in the weeds sting my feet as I run to the sound of the water
My feet relax in relief as the cool clay soothes the prickles in my tired feet
Stepping into the river
Sand squeezes between my toes and causes me to stumble
Strong waters surround me
Brisk and cold but warmer in the sunny spots
I see the bottom but it is deeper than I expected
The rocks are uneven beneath my feet
Some large, some small
Some smooth, some jagged
A slick one takes me off guard
Very difficult to stand here without support, all alone
I need something to hold on to
I feel my chest tighten
Panic that I will be swept away
Pulled under the current and dragged on the river bottom
I balance somehow with strength I don’t realize I have
My clothing is heavy with soaking water, but I do not sink
I balance carefully and journey to a dry stone in the sun
I begin to dry and feel warmth on my skin
Warmth into my soul
A twig with a tiny yellow bud floats by me into the unknown
If I go further I’m afraid it will be deeper and engulf me
My plan was to keep forging ahead and find out today where the river leads
Am I weak for staying where I am?
I feel safe here
The sun shines on my face and warms me in this place
I feel this is where I need to be
I will wait here until I am told to move
Until the voice behind the sun tells me to go forward
I hear God say
“Child, you are on my solid rock. Stand.”
*Copyright June 7, 2009, revised March 2, 2020
Today Valentine’s Day. God is love. You are loved today and always. Be loving to others.
A tear needs a question
-Not a tissue to dry it
A broken heart needs a listening ear
-Not a lashing tongue
A person with scars needs friendship in the present
-Not told of failures in the past
A moment of fear needs a hand in the dark
-Not a switch for the light
A person in agony needs compassion and validation
-Not an answer
A soul needs to connect
-Not wander in the fog
An insecure mind needs to know
-Not question or wonder
A living being needs continual love
-Not halfway, some of the time, or when it feels good
-With all you hear, all you say, all you remember, all you forget, all you touch, all you feel, all of your heart, all the way, with always a yes, and never a no.
1 Peter4:8-11 “Above all, love each other deeply because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.”
Even if we have very little of material items to give someone, we can give the greatest gift of all, which is love. Love has to show up. Love is certainly just being with someone. It is also giving to, doing for, speaking up, and reaching out. Just showing up is sometimes exactly what someone needs, but who you are and what you do when you show up also matters. Love is a choice. Love is a verb. Love has to love daily and deeply. It isn’t a hobby, a habit, or only there for when you need it. Love is a ministry. When you take someone’s heart in your hands, you are accepting the greatest responsibility on this planet. Love looks at another as a gift. A treasure. Figure out how to care for this treasure you have been given. Do you find out how to take care of the things on earth you treasure? If someone gave you a football, signed by your favorite team, during a championship game, would you play with it out in the mud and leave it outside to ruin? If someone gave you a diamond ring that belonged to a queen, would you leave it by the sink, just to fall down the drain? No. You choose to take care of things you value as rare and precious treasures. The heart of this person that you hold in your hand is a greater treasure than all earthly things.
Simply, what can you do to speak love to your loved one today?
Words of Affirmation? Say I love you. Tell them why you love them. With as many forms of communication as we have today, this one is easy.
Acts of Service? Run an errand, help relieve some kind of responsibility from their plate. Make sure they know you are willing and seek to do things for them. That you care about giving to them through lifting a little of their load.
Quality Time? Focus on them. Quiet time with them. Fun things you both like or maybe asking what they like.
Physical Touch? Leave with affection, greet with affection, offer affection just because. Babies can die without physical touch and bonding. It is a true need God gives. Think about how it would be to feel you will be alone forever without anyone to hug you, hold you, kiss you…so if you have people in your life that you love appreciate it and offer this nurturing act of love.
Receiving Gifts? It is not about the price tag, or the brand, it is about what the fabric is made of. A little gift says “I was thinking about you” “I knew you would love this” “I want you to have things I have given you among your sentimental treasures of life” Can be a flower, a pack of mints, a card, a $5 gift card for a treat…possibilities are endless.
To me, all of these should be present in a healthy relationship. Some are certainly more needed and important than others. All of these speak love and are needed to allow a person to perceive that you love them. All of these should bring you pleasure if you are giving them to someone you love…if not then I have to say hmmm? What’s going on with that? We should stop and examine our relationships to see if all of these are present. Am I doing these things?
I think much healing comes through offering a combination of these love actions.
I think trust is built.
I think bonds are strengthened.
I think Jesus loves us in all these ways and we are suppose to imitate Him.
Examine yourself to make sure you are doing all of the above and if not, do them.
Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger..Ephesians 4:26
Run to them, fall into their arms…embrace…talk in whispers – unless it is to scream how much you love them, reach out and hold their hand, look them in the eyes…these moments are the ones that count….run to them. How much greater this gift of love is, than your petty annoyances.
What can you do to initiate peace? Seek to understand, not to be understood, and your anger might dissolve long before the sun sets. For those who refuse to seek peace with your loved one, then examine your heart and motives.
If you are in conflict with that special person, run. Go. Find them. Don’t waste a second. Ask forgiveness. Forgive. Kiss. Embrace. Make it right!!! Go!
Don’t wait until it is too late.
It is better to say whoa than uh-oh. Don’t let your anger damage the relationship until you are saying, uh-oh, what have I done? I’ve lost them. Say whoa on your anger, rather than uh-oh I lost this person I love.