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yelling yellow

yelling yellow (For the video meditation)

Yellow curtains blow in a breeze in a sleepy yawn of good morning

Yellow butter flows on my hot pancakes made just for me by my Granny’s soft hands

Yellow bird sings a melody beckoning me to skip to the park

Yellow sunshine squeezes through the branches while swinging higher to touch the shine of the sun

Yellow bumble bee buzzes and hums as he laps up yummy yellow treats

Yellow lemon icee is sour, sweet, cold, and sticky

Yellow butterfly friend, delicate and small sits on a tiny yellow rosebud

Yellow caterpillar nibbles a yellow petal as he hopes to have wings, someday

Yellow sweater so soft, yet too warm and makes me scream, “Spring is here!”

Yellow shoelace trips my hurried steps to make it to my lesson on my yellow ukelele

Yellow dog sits at my feet begging for a morsel from my dinner plate

Yellow sheets are my cocoon of snuggle

Yellow moon whispers, “Sweet sleep.”

Yelling yellow in my dreams of you.

copyright Kim Crawford-Meeks sept 29, 2017, march 18, 2020

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Take time to find beauty

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David’s Journey with an Acoustic Neuroma Brain Tumor

https://youtu.be/x5oYxBLoaYo

David’s treatment, surgery, & recovery with an acoustic neuroma brain tumor.

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Buzzing and Nuzzling

Buzzing and Nuzzling

The young chestnut-bronze deer nuzzled against his snow-white woolly friend in the meadow.

Hundreds of yellow buttercups shielded them from the outsiders.

Sunbeams reached from the blue sky to warm the sleepy couple.

Lily Lamb lay her fluffy head on the fuzzy bronze neck of her friend Davy Deer.

Lily grinned as she thought about Davy’s white tuft of a tail sticking up as he protected her from Old Grey Bully Goat.

No one saw this but her.

Davy’s long legs running through the meadow, jumping over chilly streams and leaping through green thickets, were like fingers strumming a guitar.

His sweet and sad melody rang in Lily’s heart as a symphony of songs.

Davy’s sounds buzzed in her ear like the bees when they make golden honey and hummed like the sparrows when they welcome the orange sun over the crest.

Davy’s big brown loving, longing, eyes pierced through Lily’s sentimental soul.

Lily kissed each of Davy’s creamy eyelids, which told him I love you too.

Davy flicked a red and black ladybug off the soft pink inside of Lily’s ear.

She woke and realized she was dreaming of Davy.

Lily remembered that Davy was not nuzzled beside her in the green field any longer, but rather on a journey in a faraway land.

A tear squeezed from Lily’s jade green eye.

She felt a slight breeze and a chestnut-bronze colored butterfly dried her tear.

As he flew away, Lily noticed the tiniest tuft of white on the tip of the butterfly’s silky wing.

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Kim Crawford-Meeks revised 10.22.2018; 07.02.2019; 03.07.2020

 

 

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Stand

Stand

Thorns in the weeds sting my feet as I run to the sound of the water

My feet relax in relief as the cool clay soothes the prickles in my tired feet

Stepping into the river

Sand squeezes between my toes and causes me to stumble

Strong waters surround me

Brisk and cold but warmer in the sunny spots

I see the bottom but it is deeper than I expected

The rocks are uneven beneath my feet

Some large, some small

Some smooth, some jagged

A slick one takes me off guard

Very difficult to stand here without support, all alone

I need something to hold on to

I feel my chest tighten

Panic that I will be swept away

Pulled under the current and dragged on the river bottom

I balance somehow with strength I don’t realize I have

I exhale

My clothing is heavy with soaking water, but I do not sink

I balance carefully and journey to a dry stone in the sun

I begin to dry and feel warmth on my skin

Warmth into my soul

A twig with a tiny yellow bud floats by me into the unknown

If I go further I’m afraid it will be deeper and engulf me

My plan was to keep forging ahead and find out today where the river leads

Am I weak for staying where I am?

I feel safe here

The sun shines on my face and warms me in this place

I feel this is where I need to be

For now

I will wait here until I am told to move

Until the voice behind the sun tells me to go forward

I hear God say
“Child, you are on my solid rock. Stand.”

Kim Crawford-Meeks

*Copyright June 7, 2009, revised March 2, 2020

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Love Challenge Day 14 – Love Somebody

Today Valentine’s Day. God is love.  You are loved today and always. Be loving to others.

A prayer:

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A tear needs a question

-Not a tissue to dry it

A broken heart needs a listening ear

-Not a lashing tongue

A person with scars needs friendship in the present

-Not told of failures in the past

A moment of fear needs a hand in the dark

-Not a switch for the light

A person in agony needs compassion and validation

-Not an answer

A soul needs to connect

-Not wander in the fog

An insecure mind needs to know

-Not question or wonder

A living being needs continual love

-Not halfway, some of the time, or when it feels good

Love somebody

-With all you hear, all you say, all you remember, all you forget, all you touch, all you feel, all of your heart, all the way, with always a yes, and never a no.

1 Peter4:8-11 “Above all, love each other deeply because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.”

Even if we have very little of material items to give someone, we can give the greatest gift of all, which is love. Love has to show up. Love is certainly just being with someone. It is also giving to, doing for, speaking up, and reaching out. Just showing up is sometimes exactly what someone needs, but who you are and what you do when you show up also matters. Love is a choice. Love is a verb. Love has to love daily and deeply. It isn’t a hobby, a habit, or only there for when you need it. Love is a ministry. When you take someone’s heart in your hands, you are accepting the greatest responsibility on this planet. Love looks at another as a gift. A treasure. Figure out how to care for this treasure you have been given. Do you find out how to take care of the things on earth you treasure? If someone gave you a football, signed by your favorite team, during a championship game, would you play with it out in the mud and leave it outside to ruin? If someone gave you a diamond ring that belonged to a queen, would you leave it by the sink, just to fall down the drain? No. You choose to take care of things you value as rare and precious treasures. The heart of this person that you hold in your hand is a greater treasure than all earthly things.

kim crawford

12.19.13; 2.13.18

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Love Challenge Day 13 – Love like Jesus

Simply, what can you do to speak love to your loved one today?

Words of Affirmation? Say I love you. Tell them why you love them. With as many forms of communication as we have today, this one is easy.

Acts of Service? Run an errand, help relieve some kind of responsibility from their plate. Make sure they know you are willing and seek to do things for them. That you care about giving to them through lifting a little of their load.

Quality Time? Focus on them. Quiet time with them. Fun things you both like or maybe asking what they like.

Physical Touch? Leave with affection, greet with affection, offer affection just because. Babies can die without physical touch and bonding. It is a true need God gives. Think about how it would be to feel you will be alone forever without anyone to hug you, hold you, kiss you…so if you have people in your life that you love appreciate it and offer this nurturing act of love.

Receiving Gifts? It is not about the price tag, or the brand, it is about what the fabric is made of. A little gift says “I was thinking about you” “I knew you would love this” “I want you to have things I have given you among your sentimental treasures of life” Can be a flower, a pack of mints, a card, a $5 gift card for a treat…possibilities are endless.

To me, all of these should be present in a healthy relationship. Some are certainly more needed and important than others. All of these speak love and are needed to allow a person to perceive that you love them. All of these should bring you pleasure if you are giving them to someone you love…if not then I have to say hmmm? What’s going on with that? We should stop and examine our relationships to see if all of these are present. Am I doing these things?

I think much healing comes through offering a combination of these love actions.

I think trust is built.

I think bonds are strengthened.

I think Jesus loves us in all these ways and we are suppose to imitate Him.

Challenge:

Examine yourself to make sure you are doing all of the above and if not, do them.

kim crawford

 

 

 

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Love Challenge Day 12 – How to Prevent Pain and Have Healthy Communication

I have been studying a lot about conflict resolution/relationships. My supervisor and his wife had 2 sessions with us on feedback loops to deal with conflict/communication in marriage.
Their method is that you sit knee to knee.
One person who has the issue uses only I statements about how they feel. No you statements are allowed.
I feel___________when you __________or when you said _____________.
The listener responds with:
I hear you saying that you feel ________________when I ______________________.
The speaker gets to clarify further if needed and adds positive comments of understanding.
Yes, I feel ____________when_______________. I realize you don’t need___________or are working hard so you are tired (or some kind of understanding of why it is happening).
The listener repeats again and then asks is there anything else you need to tell me about this?
Speaker responds.
Then the speaker tells the listener what they need from listener (to listen only, to do some specific thing in the future, to apologize…)
You stay on one subject, no one feels attacked, and you reach resolution.  It was awesome when they demonstrated it. The author of the Mars Venus books suggests doing a feeling letter and response letter. Another method of a similar thing but in writing instead of verbally. They have many topics on relationships on their website also. Check out the links.
If we all learn this feedback loop process, we can model it for future generations so that they will grow up knowing how to deal with conflict and not get messed up with what my supervisor calls A&I people a..hole and idiots who are blamers (it’s your fault you feel that way) placaters (pleasers) or distractor (someone who always finds an excuse for the people you are upset with rather than validating your feelings) computer (someone who deals with emotions with data rather than emotion). What we want is to become levelers.
Also, it is important to know men think with one side of their brain at a time and women with the whole brain. I’ve been told a hormone released in the womb causes this separation of male thinking. Women don’t have that hormone released in the womb. Men look at one piece of pie at a time. Women look at the whole pie. In other words, men think in present tense. Women think in past, present and future all at once. That’s how God made us. It is designed that way so that women will nurture children and men can go to war to protect. God is warrior and nurturer. Men and women each have part of the attributes of God and together in unity become one having both sides of God in the relationship.
Our differences can cause conflict or mesh together. It takes work to learn how to allow them to mesh. We work on education, jobs, our cars, our yards…we have to work on our relationships. What car will keep going without work? Flat tire due to a nail? You would get the nail out and patch the tire. Tire flattens again? You would replace the tire. You certainly wouldn’t leave the nail in and continue to drive. You couldn’t, because eventually the car would not go any more. It would sit still somewhere on the journey. Stuck and damaged. If you want to continue on the journey, then you would fix the flat. You would patch, replace, oh yes, you would do whatever it takes to continue and make it ride smoothly so that all passengers are comfortable.
Oh, also, women have 8 times the blood flow to the emotional part of the brain as men. That is why we are more outwardly emotional.
Women like to talk about the relationship with their partner when they feel it is a good relationship and worth working on. Men hear this as complaint and go into fight or flight. They either retreat into a cave or say really harsh and mean things to women. Women yell. When we understand that there are going to be feelings of confusion, anger, sadness, and needs in a relationship then we have accomplished step one. The next task is to find a way to communicate about these negative issues without damaging the relationship or one person’s ability to be loved by the other.
Know your partner’s love language (what speaks love to them? quality time? words of affirmation? physical touch? acts of service? gifts? – I think some are more important to some people than others, but honestly all should be present in healthy relationships.)
Try the verbal feedback loop to discuss feelings and hopefully to avoid hurtful conflict.
We get into relationships because we can’t imagine life without this person who makes us feel so good. Let’s continue to make one another feel good as the relationship continues.  Healthy relationships are possible if both people are levelers. Be a leveler. Find a leveler.  We can teach younger generations how to communicate in a healthy manner and hopefully have better relationships and fewer break ups.
And if you need to form new habits to show love…Love Dare. Simple yet incredible tool that should be in all relationship toolboxes.
Get out the tools and fix the flat. Replace the flat. Continue the journey with all passengers comfortable along the way.
Blessings on your relationships! If one person learns this in the smallest way, I feel I have done something that matters.
Kim Crawford
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Love Challenge Day 11 – Love Seeks Resolution

Love is not a feeling.
Love is a choice.
Love doesn’t end because you are angry.
Love should remain through all emotions.
Love is proven during the conflicts, not when it’s easy.
Refusing to seek resolution can confuse your heart, damage your relationship, hinder growth, stifle intimacy…
Seek peace. Go.
Why is it that when we date we say, what can I do for this person, yet when we marry we say, what is this person not doing for me?
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Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger..Ephesians 4:26

Run to them, fall into their arms…embrace…talk in whispers – unless it is to scream how much you love them, reach out and hold their hand, look them in the eyes…these moments are the ones that count….run to them. How much greater this gift of love is, than your petty annoyances.

 

What can you do to initiate peace? Seek to understand, not to be understood, and your anger might dissolve long before the sun sets. For those who refuse to seek peace with your loved one, then examine your heart and motives.

If you are in conflict with that special person, run. Go. Find them. Don’t waste a second. Ask forgiveness. Forgive. Kiss. Embrace. Make it right!!! Go!

Don’t wait until it is too late.

It is better to say whoa than uh-oh. Don’t let your anger damage the relationship until you are saying, uh-oh, what have I done? I’ve lost them. Say whoa on your anger, rather than uh-oh I lost this person I love.

Go.

Kim Crawford

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Love Challenge Day 10 – Romantic Date Night

Picnic under the stars

Drive somewhere new in the car

A little slow dance adds a little spark

Ride the carousel in the park

Go out and dress up so she’ll feel like a queen

I bet she just might think you’re really keen

One flower says I love you as much as bunch

Surprise your sweetie with an unexpected lunch

Write a love note requesting a date

Watch a movie and cuddle until it’s late

Tell her how you feel, even if it’s not easy

I bet you just might, in return get a squeezy

Make a memory that will last forever and longer

There is no way this won’t make you stronger

Play some music and sing along

Put forth some effort…you won’t go wrong.

Have fun!

kim crawford